Where to start....

Casey finally convinced me to start a blog (I didn't know you could make little books out of them!), but I have no clue how to start. I can prolly promise I'll write mostly about Buggy, pregnancy, and what our lil family is doing.

Pregnancy
I really really thought I'd love being pregnant... turns out its mostly creepy and miserable :( I'm rather disappointed. Nothing can prepare you for how bizarre it is to have another living thing inside of you. Sometimes its really cute and exciting when Claire's kicking me, but I gotta admit that just as often it freaks me out and gives me the willies. Tyler still hasn't been able to feel her yet. I think he would have yesterday, but she was kicking so hard that I jumped a little every time and it distracted him. Bug loves to put her hand on my belly though and say she can feel her.

She's so adorable with this whole thing. She walks around and sticks out her belly way, way far and tells me how big the baby is getting. She wants us to feel her belly and shows us right where the baby is. This week I was having really bad round ligament pain and kept complaining that my belly hurt when I moved. Bug started complainig her belly hurt too and I got really worried.... 'til I realized she was putting her hand right where I put mine... apparently, her ligaments hurt too :P. I have been informed that I don't have to do the motion for stout in My Little Teapot anymore because I'm stout enough to be a teapot already. Actually, toddlers are a great little honest people when it comes to pregnancy. I was trying on some shirts today at Walmart and she was getting squirrely so I brought her in with me... she looked at the shirt I tried on and told me that "You're belly's getting really big Crystal. That shirt makes it look big, big, big!" She then patted my belly a lot and traced a really big belly with her hand "Bloop, bloop". It was so adorable... and a bit insulting at the same time :P

I hadn't really realized that being pregnant meant so many people get to have opinions about things. I'm really struggling with my weight being pregnant... I have gained 1lb officially in 20 weeks. Its not quite as bad as it sounds since I had really bad morning sickness all first trimester and lost ~6lbs, but its definitely not a good thing. My doctor isn't really concerned yet, but I definitely get the lecture every appointment. I seriously don't know what I'm doing wrong. I eat, I eat a lot, and  I try to eat good things. If I can't eat health, I at least try to eat a lot of calories. I just wish I had gained about 5 more pounds. I don't want to gain 50+, but reaching a good 20-25lbs by the time I give birth would be perfect.... and gaining them steadily would be even better! Putting on a bunch of weight at the end is even harder on your body and the baby than gaining alot steadily throughout.

And I really wish everyone would stop commenting on how tiny I am... nobody believes I'm 5monthes along already :( I hate being so small cuz I'm worried that its because I haven't gained enough and the baby isn't growing well. The doctor says she's fine right now, but it only helps so much. I'm carrying high too which doesn't help matters. I feel ginormous though! Pants are terrible, they don't fit right and cut right across my belly. Elastic is the worst cuz it cuts in. I definitely have a belly going on though... I've lost my toes unless I lean forward and my belly is definitely further out than my boobs... which is saying a lot for me!

Alright, its oh so bedtime and I've chattered on enough for one post.... hopefully I'll keep this up!